michael talked about new year’s resolutions last wednesday, but more importantly he talked about God’s will and how it is always going on around us…we just have to choose to be a part of it. we have to make a choice to walk in it. he is going to use us…it’s a fact.
but I find myself wondering what hinders his will. what do i do or not do that prevents me from walking in the plan that he has willed?
what do I have going on in my life that isn’t aligned with the Spirit of God?
am I afraid to dream big for fear that God may not have those dreams in mind? am i afraid to tell God my hopes and fears because they may or may not not become a reality in my life?
i think sometimes i view God as someone who sees what i want and then asks me to do the complete opposite…but what if what i want is nothing compared to what God wants and what if he wants to use me in a much bigger plan that changes things…people, time, history…what if he had me in mind to do a specific thing long before i was born.
am i afraid to do or say or live a certain way because it might mean losing everything i know as good and right and real?
but what is good if God isn’t in it?
and what is right if He isn’t the one in control of it?
and what is real if HE didn’t create it?
in light of so many recent events in my life…i am compelled to ask myself why i am here…and for how long?
if He created the world. if He created me. if He sent his Son to die for my sins so i could be with him forever. if i believe all of this as truth…then what in the world am i waiting for? when am i gonna take the dive into the unknown and be consumed by his will?
when am I gonna give up what holds me back from doing all that he desires?
how long will i teeter on the edge of HIS reality and my own?
it only takes a choice. it only takes a moment…
before everything changes
